push to discover

There is probably just too much running in my mind now days. I have added new things to my daily routine. first thought that came to my mind was, "I have bounded my self". This was probably the tired me taking out its frustration,  but the immedite thought next to it brought a smile to my face, I didnt even realise that how I sudenly managed to take three hours extra from the same 24 hours. Yes I do feel fatigued at times, but I was not doing anything worthy earlier as well. Now at least I am addidng some value to my life if not anything else I am at least back to official learning days for part time. I never knew that i would sudenly have a better and positive outlook for formal education and being honest I probabaly never felt so excited and content About gaining education as I do today. While I write these words my mind triggers negative thoughts again and asks for how long would I be able to carry this tight schedule, would I be able to grasp the most out of it or would I feel defeated by stress and stop in between? All I know is that I have made a decison  and by hook or crook I will live it for as long as I can push myself, for everytime I push myself to extreemes as per my self known limits, I only discover that I have higher potentials than what I thought I had till date. Also I realise that efficiancy of a person is tested and best discovered in times of hardship. Yes they are two things that can happen to you when you are pushed to extremes, you may survive or break, but all of it depends on your attitude for life and your base of life ( positive or negative)

Manisha Dawar